February 4, 2017
My Dear Sweet Baby Brayden; my baby B,
We are (not so) patiently waiting for you my boy. You are full term and there is 5 days until your due date. I have been praying each night that I will wake up to strong contractions so that we can meet you, but still nothing. I know that everyday you are growing more and more but as soon as we hit 37 weeks I began to be impatient in my hopes to meet you. I am so thankful that you didn’t come too soon but at this point I am so excited to be your mommy and to hold you in my arms that the thought of waiting another minute to meet you is torture to me. I am not the most patient person, in case you couldn’t tell, but I know the Lord has a perfect plan for your life. You will be born on exactly the right moment and your life is going to be so blessed.
The last time I wrote you I was just about finished with the first trimester and a lot of great things have happened since. You are so incredibly loved. So many people care about you and have showered us with love and have helped us get everything we need for your arrival. Your daddy and I have been working so hard to prepare the house for you. My “nesting” has been a bit out of control, which your daddy will attest to. Even at 39 weeks pregnant I spend everyday working on a project. Yesterday I cleaned the baseboards in the entire house. We have taken so many classes; 12 weeks worth of Bradley natural birthing class, car seat safety, newborn care 101, etc. I would do anything for you, and I know that the pain that I will soon be feeling will be productive and will bring me closer and closer to meeting you. I cannot wait for the opportunity to put myself aside for your well-being, then and only then will I be the person I am supposed to be- your mother.
I want you to know how much you mean to me. I have never felt so blessed in my life. I feel complete, knowing that you are on the way. You hiccup almost everyday and you have been head down in the right position since at least 20 weeks, which is the first time we checked. You wiggle all day and night and when you stretch it looks like you are tearing my stomach in half, but I love watching you move. Your daddy and I have grown closer and closer with ever appointment, every chance to listen to your heartbeat, and every ultrasound. He is going to be the best daddy!
I will love you forever my boy. Literally, for my whole life and for eternity after. Please don’t ever forget that. I pray that you grow up to be a kind, loving, intelligent man; that you will work hard and be honest; that you will be open-minded and fair and that you will be a man of strong integrity and faith. If you are ever feeling lost, you can come to me and I will guide you. If you are lonely, then just call and I will be there. I will protect you fiercely and do my very best for you, each and every day. Above all else, I hope to be a good example for you and to lead you to the Lord. I pray that you have a strong relationship with Jesus. If all that is required is extra effort, then please be unstoppable. You can do anything you put your mind to and I will be your biggest cheerleader along the way. I adore you my sweet boy and I will give you the world.
Come on little boy and join us in the world. You have a loving family, ready and excited to meet you.
Love always and forever
I hope one day you will enjoy looking at these memories as much as I have enjoyed making them. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms.
This is my favorite photo of you at 17 weeks, all cuddle up.
Here you are at 26 weeks, once again sleepy and cuddly.
At 36 weeks, you wouldn’t move your arms out of your face and this was the best photo we could get of you. You are so handsome! They say you will have a head full of hair and that you will be about 6lbs 8oz. I can’t wait to kiss those sweet little cheeks.